From my early days I was a submissive person, I used to be on my own lost somewhere. I used to think may be god has given me wrong body I would have been better as a women. I always used to think how wonderful it would have been if I was a female. Most of the times I used to think of someone who love me and care me as a women. I really liked the way women used to submit to their husband being under control of someone who loves you always fascinated me. I knew all those were thoughts and are never going to happen in real. As I grew older I used to be really upset cause I knew I could not get what I wanted. In these conditions I used to dress up as a women whenever I got the opportunity this was the only way I could live my dreams.
I continued to fulfill my dreams alone though it was not very satisfying. After few years I shifted to a new place with a bit of hope. There was a girl who was living in my adjacent room. I thought she could help me but I was a bit hesitant to share something of this kind with a unknown person. So first I had to get some friendship going with her, I knew that will make things easier. And I started talking with her the bond was getting better but not to the level to share something I was wanting. One Night I was in my dream attire dressed as a girl, someone knocked on my door. I thought of changing my clothes but the knocks were getting louder and louder, somehow I managed to change my dress but was unable to remove the make-up and jewelries. Due to the constant knocking I shut my room lights and I opened the door with a bit of fear, it was Maya . She had lost her key and wanted me to help her break the door lock. She came inside my room and was surprised when she lit on the lights with female clothes lying on bed and makeup and jeweleries still on. After seeing all these she asked me wat's going on. I knew I couldn't lie from here it was better to tell her the truth which someday I myself was going to tell her. I asked her to sit patiently and explained her everything. Her reaction was not as bad as what I had expected it to be finally I felt some relief now. She told me from now onwards she will also help me. I was thankful to her.
After that day whenever we had free time Maya used to come to my room and used to teach me various expects of female life like talking, facial expressions, body moments. Being a quick learner I progressed very quickly. She was happy seeing my willingness to learn. Now you should learn to do household duties like cooking, cleaning, washing clothes are you ready to this cause it's all you have to do once you are married she said. The word marriage just hit me so hard I felt a little shy and nodded my head. What I had noticed was I was willing to do everything said by Maya , she was like a guardian to me. She told me to always wear saree while doing these duties cause it will help you get used to. It was not an easy job to do wearing saree it needed a lot of practice. Maya was right once I get married, I will have to spend all my life in saree. I felt as if I was reborn it was such a pleasing experience it was. Days passed out and I was enjoying every moment of these wonderful days.
One day Maya told me we are going to market, I asked her why ?, what if Somebody catches me, don't worry no body will recognize you she said. Maya was hiding something from me I could read it from her attributes. We left for the market first we went to the beauty parlor. I was bit surprised at first why a parlor, i thought. Maya then pulled me inside. The girls there offered me a seat, I sat there feeling awkward. Soon they started massaging my body, suddenly i forgot all the things that were in my mind. It was as is if I was lying somewhere else. After massage they did the waxing, facial, polished my nails. Maya then asked the girls to pierce my nose and ears. I just sat quietly waiting for the surprise, never had this much of preparations done. After the girls finished I looked myself in the mirror, it was like a new avtar a new girl, green saree, matching, earrings, green nail polish a small nose ring. I was completed astonished by my own looks. After that we purchased a brand new red saree and few other feminine attires. When we reached our room I asked her why all this preparations is there something special. Yes someone will come to see you tomorrow, she said. That sent shivers down my spine, I asked what? who?. She said her Boss but how I asked? Actually do you remember we took few photographs of yours......Ya I do.. My Boss saw in my mobile and asked me out of fear I told her everything. But she started liking you and wants to meet you. This was unreal completely unreal, I couldn't believe my ears. That night I was worried a bit nervous a bit excited life was giving enough surprises.
Maya waked me up in the morning there was a rush in her, she too was bit tensed. Maya helped me to get myself ready. I wore a red saree, sandals, matching blouse and earrings. After I was ready Maya helped me out to her room Her boss (Shilpa) was already there sitting in the sofa. Maya helped me to sit beside her. I was feeling shy and lot more nervous. Then shilpa took my hands and inserted a ring, Maya took one ring out and I did the same. My mind was completely blind didn't know how I did it. Maya then decided the marriage date. Shilpa asked me are you willing to marry me, I just nodded my head wasn't in a position to speak.
I just got my breath back when shilpa left. Maya hugged me and said yes you have done it. I think you are a complete women now, you have all aspects of a female, I am sure you will be a good wife, She said. She was lot happier now of course she needed to be she was friend of her boss's to be wife. Maya had taken the initiative of our marriage everything was in her shoulders now. The marriage was to take place in a big hotel.
Days were just flying we put in a lot of preparation didn't even notice the date of wedding was just ahead. That morning we woke up early and packed our bags and left for the hotel. No body had arrived Maya me and the girls with us were first to reach there. We went Inside the room where they would prepare me as a bride. They had to do a lot of things Maya was the instructor there she didn't want any complacency from the girls. Maya gave me a fed lehanga to wear and after that girls started my make up, my face was radiant, pink cheeks, red lips, long polished nails with red color. Then came the jeweleries, anklets, toe rings, nice chain round the waist, necklace, earrings, bangles, Plenty of stuff in the head and hair too. A round nosering attached with a chain to hair I just felt a bit sting when they inserted the nosering . It almost added extra weight but I was loving it. The sounds of bangles every-time I raised my hand, the nosering touching my red lips and the chain caressing my cheeks. It was such a awesome feeling to be a bride. After the make up they covered my face with a veil. And escorted me to the mandap by the time I reaced there Shilpa was already there in his wedding suit and other guests too had arrived most of them were Maya friends from her office. I sat beside Shilpa and the priest started chanting mantras. We performed the rituals the normal ones like everybody does. Shilpa then applied sindoor on my head and tied the Mangalsutra. Then I bent down to take blessings from my husband, thank god the Veil was hiding my face, my face must have been red with shame. The marriage was over and it was party time. Everyone was enjoying, I was feeling bit lost. I knew now I can't be a man again the Veil, the nosering and other jeweleries were reminding me of my status now I was someone's wife he had just taken ownership of me and I vowed the completely surrender to him. Perhaps this was the best thing for me, i knew couldn't have been a good husband but I could be a good wife. I was lost in these thoughts didn't noticed already it was time to go to my new house. We sat in the car and left for my new house and Maya was with us she was there to stay. As the distance was getting shorter my heart beat was racing. Finally we arrived Maya led me to our room. Maya re did my make up I had been suffocating under the veil for whole day a bit of fresh air took out a bit of stress from my body. She told me to sit patiently and let him do everything.
Soon my husband came shivers ran down my spine. I quickly adjusted the veil. He came near and lifted my veil, I just kept my eyes closed. You are looking very beautiful, the shyness in you attracts me towards you he said. He was now my husband it was a fact I gathered some courage and thanked him. Soon he removed my clothes and jeweleries and started kissing me it was very passionate it left me aroused soon i replied back. As our romance was taking new heights I felt as if something was going inside me. My husband was giving me the first sexual pleasure of my life. It was out of this world, after few sessions both us felt satisfied he kissed me on forehead and slept. I was thankful to Maya she was the one who had gifted me this life.
In the morning I woke up to the sounds of birds in the garden area. I went to the bathroom took a shower and got myself ready it was first day in my new house. I prepared tea and went to serve it to my husband who was reading newspaper in the guest room. Maya said have you taken blessings from your husband, she further added now you are a married women you must be dressed as a housewife, look you have even forgot to wear the nosering after he took it out yesterday. Maya knew what had happened last night, I felt a bit shy. But she was right now I was a married women so Without saying anything I went to our room put the jewelries, sindoor, mangalsutra didn't find a small nose ring so decided to go with the one used on wedding day. And touched my husbands feet, it brought a smile on his face. He must have felt proud. Maya had the duty of looking after me which was assigned by my husband. She was now more of her boss's assistant than my friend.
It took me few days to adjust with the jeweleries 24/7 but later I started liking it very much. I very much looked like a submissive obedient housewife. This is now my life, I talk with my bangles, I play with my long hair.
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